Some friends will deal well with your illness and provide gratifying support.
Some will be unable to cope with the possibility of death and will disappear from your life.
Most will want to help but may be uncomfortable and unsure of how to go about it. Help your friends support you:
Ask yourself, “Have friends deserted me or have I withdrawn from them?”
Telephone those who don’t call you.
Ask for simple assistanceto run an errand, prepare a meal, come and visit. These small acts bring friends back into contact and help them feel useful and needed.
If you are alone, ask your physician, social worker or pastor to “match” you with another patient. Someone else needs friendships, too.
Groups of other cancer patients can offer new friendships, under-standing, support and companionship.
When you return to work, coworkers, like others, may shun you, support you or wait for your cues on how to respond.
There are laws to protect you against job discrimination.
Anyone who has been affected intimately by cancer knows that it can change the pattern of our relationships outside the family as well as those within. Friends react as they do to other difficult situations. Some handle it well; others are unable to maintain any association at all. Casual acquaintances, and even strangers, can cause unintended pain by asking thoughtless questions about visible scars, artificial devices or other noticeable changes in appearance.
One or two people within your circle may be gratifying in their devotion and in the sensitivity they show toward your needs. One woman said her mother-in-law found one or two close friends with whom she felt truly relaxed. They were not startled when she laughed nor ill at ease when she cried. With others she maintained an outward calm.
“I have three really good friends with whom I can talk about my cancer,” explained another. “I have talked about dying with my sister, and she does understand a lot more than I thought a person without cancer could.”
When Friends Don’t Call
Lost friendships are one of the real heartbreaks people with cancer face. Friends do not call for a variety of reasons. They might not know how to respond to a change in your appearance. They might be avoiding you in order to avoid facing the possibility of your death and the eventuality of their own. Their absence does not necessarily mean they no longer care about you. Still, it is little comfort to know that “out there” you have friends if they have so little confidence in their worth as companions that they would rather say nothing than risk saying the wrong thing.
“I see that my friends don’t know how to talk to me, and they shy away from me,” wrote one person with cancer. “Most people are very ignorant on the subject of cancer.”
If you believe discomfort rather than fear is keeping a particular friend from visiting, you might try a phone call to dissolve the barrier. Yet you cannot combat all the reasons why people avoid you; some still believe that cancer is contagious. Certainly, you cannot call them up and say, “Hey, get out of the Dark Ages. It’s not catching!”
Knowing that others are ignorant does little to lessen the hurt and frustration of being needlessly isolated. You only can change the attitudes of others if you are among them. Examine carefully whether friends shun you or whether you have withdrawn from your usual social contacts to protect your own feelings. You can neither enlighten nor draw comfort from an empty room. If possible, the best place to be is out in the world with other people.
Easing the Way for Others
Most people fall into a middle group, somewhere between the staunch friends and the “avoiders.” They are groping for an approach to cancer with which they can be comfortable. These people may say things which sound inane, insincere or hurtful. You have to keep re-minding yourself that they are trying their best. If you are open about cancer, they may relax, too.
A perceptive high school student explained, “I guess what I’m trying to say boils down to this. One of these days people may not feel so uneasy around a disabled person. I’m not bitter with people; I’m really quite at ease with them and strive to make them feel at ease with me. They feel afraid of me, and consequently trip over their tongues. I have learned a lot by living in a handicap’s world and am quite willing to share it. One of these days, I may be given the chance.”
A woman who had had extensive surgery for oral cancer explained how she tried to lessen the discomfort of others without causing discomfort for herself. She focused on her disability rather than its cause.
“I am determined to put people at ease, so when I speak on the telephone, or to someone for the first time, I immediately say, ‘I have a speech defect, so please don’t hesitate to tell me if you don’t under-stand me.’ I also carry a pencil and paper and offer to write what can’t be understood. I find it much more frustrating to have people try to save my feelings by pretending to understand me when they don’t.”
A man we know startled his fishing buddies, who were paying a group visit to his hospital room. He positively threw open the door to honest communication when he boomed out, “You know, I’ve learned one hell of a lot about cancer since I became a member of the club.”
We can’t all be that direct. He had been a straightforward man all his life. But he had let his friends know that he preferred talking about his cancer to pussyfooting around it.
Helping Friends Help
Many times friends are waiting for some clue as to what behavior is appropriate. They might not be sure you want company. They might call to “see how things are going,” then add as they hang up the phone, “Let me know if there’s anything I can do to help.”
These friends are asking for more than a job to do. They are asking for direction, giving you clues that they will not desert you if only they have some guidance on how to proceed. The next time friends or relatives offer assistance, try to look at the offer in that light. If you can think of one specific errand they can run, one chore they can take off your hands, you have done them and yourself a favor.
“Mother hasn’t been out since Dad became ill. I think a Saturday afternoon at the shopping center would do wonders for her.”
“We’ll be at the hospital all day Thursday for chemotherapy. It would be such a help to me if you could whip up a casserole for our dinner.”
“I don’t feel much like talking these days, but if you’d bring your needlepoint and come sit with me, it would be pleasant to have your company.”
Most people are grateful if there is something concrete they can do to show their continuing friendship. If such tasks bring them into your home, it gives them a chance to see that you are still living and functioningnot a funeral waiting to happen. Their next visit might be easier, and then they may be able to stop by without a “reason.”
Choosing to help friends in this way is no easy undertaking. When you feel stretched to breaking just keeping your own life going, it is difficult to extend your energies further to make others feel at ease. It can be a new and difficult experience for some, this reaching out, but the rewards can be exhilarating. We all feel better giving than receiving, so it might be easier if you think of your requests for assistance as letting others feel useful, rather than as petitions for help.
Fighting Loneliness
Regardless of what you do, your friends might desert you. Circumstances might have left you alone before cancer struck. This is a special, awful loneliness for any human being to endure. There are no easy answers, no pat solutions. The mutual support of other people with cancer might provide some solace and comfort. (See the appendix for suggestions.) There probably are others in your community who need your companionship as much as you need theirs. Being housebound need not deprive you of visits from others who would like to share some quiet moments or some deeply felt sorrow with someone who will understand. A physician, social worker, visiting nurse or member of the clergy should be able to help you contact another cancer patient or shut-in who could use company.
On the Job
For many of us, work forms a cornerstone of life. In addition to income, it provides satisfaction and a chance to interact with peers. Returning to work as soon as you are physically able is one way to return stability to your life. If treatment has made it impossible to return to a former line of work, investigate the availability of rehabilitation and retraining programs within the community to prepare you for another occupation.
You might find on returning to your job that relationships with co-workers have changed. One person with cancer found his associates had requested separate restroom facilities for himthat old “cancer is catching” bugaboo again!
More people face an “If we pretend Jane never had cancer, it will go away” approach by co-workers, and that can be most demoralizing. Some have found that if you look well and are able to function, people tend to underestimate the seriousness of your condition. They might mumble something like, “Glad you’re back; you look great,” and never ask how you really feel. In turn, you might find you resent their good health and nonchalance as you wonder what happened to the companionship you had looked forward to in returning to work.
The best you can do is assume that your co-workers, like so many others, are unsure of what to say or are trying to protect your feelings or their own.
Others returning to work might be perfectly delighted with a rather cavalier attitude toward their condition. “Glad you’re back,” might be all you want to hear before plunging into your old routine. If you are being coddled at home, returning to a situation where others do not think of you as sick might be the greatest therapy yet devised.
Some people believe it eases relationships with co-workers if they are quite open about their condition. One young woman described in a speech to other cancer patients why she decided to tell about the cancer.
“Since my bones don’t cooperate, it’s hard for me to appear graceful, but I have a choice in this situation,” she said. “I can either move as though nothing is bothering me (while gritting my teeth and giving my contact lenses a salty bath), or I can move awkwardly in reasonable comfort. I think this is one of the reasons I don’t mind people knowing I have multiple myeloma. I keep having this flash of having died and having someone who just found out about the myeloma saying, ‘So that’s why she kept falling over.’ ”
If cancer treatment meant leaving your old job, discrimination may be a hurdle to returning to work. Even the person who is completely recovered may find it difficult to obtain employment. The rationale, one hears from indirect sources, is that people who have had cancer take too many sick days, are a poor insurance risk or will make co-workers uncomfortable.
How does one cope? You might begin with this information: The Rehabilitation Act of 1973, a Federal statute, includes persons who have been treated for cancer among the handicapped, and thus covered by the Act. You may not think of yourself as handicapped, but it is indeed a handicap if misconceptions about cancer have limited your chances of finding a job.
In substance, the Act requires firms with contracts or subcontracts to the Federal government of $50,000 or more and with 50 or more employees to prepare and maintain an affirmative action pro-gram for the handicappedand that means you. (Such a program might include rehabilitation training.) In addition, the Act makes illegal discrimination against a handicapped individual by any entity, regardless of size, if it receives money, regardless of amount, from the Department of Health and Human Services (formerly the Department of Health, Education, and Welfare).
Today, many firms, local governments and educational and health institutions do business or receive funding from the Federal government. You might want to target your job hunting in their direction.
If you apply for a job with a firm with government contracts and believe you did not get the job because of your cancer, you can file a complaint under Section 503 of the Act with the Office of Federal Contract Compliance Programs of the U.S. Department of Labor. If your complaint is against an agency receiving money from Health and Human Services, file your action with the DHHS Office of Civil Rights. For reference, your complaint falls under Section 504 of the Act.
A number of states also have passed statutes prohibiting discrimination against cancer patients. Your State Department of Labor or Office of Civil Rights can advise you on the law. (The Labor Department also may know of rehabilitation and retraining programs.) In addition, you may be able to obtain information and assistance from union representatives, regional or national offices of the Rehabilitation Services Administration, the Equal Employment Opportunities Commission, the National Labor Relations Board or the American Civil Liberties Union.